What the hell. Y’all KNOW I like memes. :)

A.) Go to musicoutfitters.com
B.) Enter the year you graduated from high school in the search function and get the list of 100 most popular songs of that year
C.) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you hate and underline your favorite. Do nothing to the ones you don’t remember (or don’t care about)

1. The Sign, Ace Of Base
2. I Swear, All-4-One
3. I’ll Make Love To You, Boyz II Men
4. The Power Of Love, Celine Dion

5. Hero, Mariah Carey
6. Stay (I Missed You), Lisa Loeb and Nine Stories
7. Breathe Again, Toni Braxton
8. All For Love, Bryan Adams, Rod Stewart and Sting
9. All That She Wants, Ace Of Base
10. Don’t Turn Around, Ace Of Base

11. Bump N’ Grind, R. Kelly
12. Again, Janet Jackson
13. I’ll Remember, Madonna
14. Whatta Man, Salt-N-Pepa
15. Wild Night, John Mellencamp and Me’shell Ndegeocello
16. Without You/Never Forget You, Mariah Carey
17. You Mean The World To Me, Toni Braxton
18. Can You Feel The Love Tonight, Elton John
19. The Most Beautiful Girl In The World, Prince Symbol
20. Fantastic Voyage, Coolio
21. Baby I Love Your Way, Big Mountain
22. Regulate, Warren G and Nate Dogg
23. If You Go, Jon Secada
24. Back and Forth, Aaliyah
25. Now And Forever, Richard Marx

26. When Can I See You, Babyface
27. Please Forgive Me, Bryan Adams
28. So Much In Love, All-4-One
29. Shoop, Salt-N-Pepa
30. Any Time, Any Place/And On And On, Janet Jackson
31. Shine, Collective Soul
32. Said I Loved You…But I Lied, Michael Bolton
33. Return To Innocence, Enigma
34. All I Wanna Do, Sheryl Crow
35. Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm, Crash Test Dummies

36. Can We Talk, Tevin Campbell
37. Funkdafied, Da Brat
38. I’d Do Anything For Love (But I Won’t Do That), Meat Loaf

39. Gangsta Lean, Drs
40. Because The Night, 10,000 Maniacs
41. Cantaloop, US3
42. Whoomp! (There It Is), Tag Team
43. Come To My Window, Melissa Etheridge

44. Stroke You Up, Changing Faces
45. I’m Ready, Tevin Campbell
46. 100% Pure Love, Crystal Waters
47. Anytime You Need A Friend, Mariah Carey
48. Because Of Love, Janet Jackson
49. Linger, Cranberries
50. Loser, Beck
51. Found Out About You, Gin Blossoms

52. Gin And Juice, Snoop Doggy Dogg
53. Never Lie, Immature
54. Streets Of Philadelphia, Bruce Springsteen
55. Getto Jam, Domino
56. Endless Love, Luther Vandross and Mariah Carey
57. I Miss You w/ Aaron Hall
58. Understanding, Xscape
59. This D.J., Warren G
60. Cry For You, Jodeci
61. Keep Ya Head Up, 2Pac
62. Who Am I (What’s My Name?), Snoop Doggy Dogg
63. Another Night, Real McCoy
64. Your Body’s Callin’, R. Kelly
65. Tootsee Roll, 69 Boyz
66. I Can See Clearly Now, Jimmy Cliff
67. Never Keeping Secrets, Babyface
68. Crazy, Aerosmith
69. Just Kickin’ It, Xscape
70. At Your Best (You Are Love), Aaliyah
71. Rock And Roll Dreams Come Through, Meat Loaf
72 Amazing, Aerosmith
73. Always, Erasure

74. Groove Thang, Zhane
75. Dreams, Gabrielle
76. Mr. Vain, Culture Beat
77. Mary Jane’s Last Dance, Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers
78. Anything, SWV
79. Beautiful In My Eyes, Joshua Kadison
80. Stay, Eternal
81. Flava In Ya Ear, Craig Mack
82. U.N.I.T.Y., Queen Latifah
83. Prayer For The Dying, Seal
84. Secret, Madonna
85. Here Comes The Hotstepper, Ini Kamoze
86. Everyday, Phil Collins
87. Don’t Take The Girl, Tim McGraw
88. Got Me Waiting, Heavy D and The Boyz
89. December 1963 (Oh, What A Night), Four Seasons
90. Indian Outlaw, Tim McGraw
91. Always, Bon Jovi
92. I’m The Only One, Melissa Etheridge

93. Back In The Day, Ahmad
94. Love Sneakin’ Up On You, Bonnie Raitt
95. I’ll Take You There, General Public
96. Always In My Heart, Tevin Campbell
97. What Is Love, Haddaway
98. And Our Feelings, Babyface
99. Bop Gun (One Nation), Ice Cube
100. I Wanna Be Down, Brandy

Most of the ones I left alone, I’m not even sure if I heard, let alone liked/disliked them.  I was very into “alternative” music at the time, so although I bolded quite a bit of this list, it wasn’t even the majority of what I was into back then.

But now I’ve got “Please Forgive Me” stuck in my head.  Dammit.

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Holy crap, Batman! I got tagged!

I didn’t even realized I’d gotten tagged until I followed the link from Nudemuse’s post (cuz she got tagged, too).  Sorry, Boobs I Has Dem!  I don’t know why the link didn’t show up on my dashboard!

So here we go:

What are five things you’ve said or done in the past twelve months that you’re most proud of?

1.  Finally finding my way on the road to self-acceptance. Having started therapy at the age of 8 and going continuously for 10 years, as well as many intermittent periods of therapy after that, this is a big deal to me.  All those years of therapy did absolutely nothing for me.  Less than a year with FA?  Has made such a huge difference that there aren’t even enough words in the English language to describe it.

2.  Learning to dress myself. I know that sounds odd, especially coming from a 32-year-old woman, but I had hidden myself away in my clothes for so long that I honestly did not know what kinds of things would look good on me and what wouldn’t.  I’ve come full circle, wearing things that I NEVER, IN A MILLION YEARS thought I could pull off.  And I look GOOD.  I’m by no means an expert, but the progress I’ve made is amazing.

3.  As Joy so wonderfully put it, I stopped letting the tiny little minds get me down. There was a point where I seriously considered deleting my blog because of the troll comments.  To be quite honest, they really got to me at first.  But then Hubby brought up a good point.

“So you’re going to let some anonymous assholes undo all the hard work you’ve done over the last few months?”

Short answer: NO!  Longer answer: My ingrained belligerence came in handy.  I simply stuck my heels in and REFUSED to ALLOW them to upset me.  Now, if a troll comment does seem to bother me, I’m more bothered by the blatant stupidity the troll reveals than anything.  Stupidity is my biggest pet peeve, so it’s not a surprise that troll stupidity would bother me.  (I do distinguish between ignorance and stupidity.  An ignorant person can be taught.  Stupid people are hopeless.)  Most of the time?  They’re just ridiculous.

4.  I spoke up to my chosen family* about my views on FA and fat in general. I posted about it here.  Honestly, I was a little scared to say anything, but I was too drunk at the time to care.  But now that I’ve said it, I’m glad I did.  My chosen family did not look at me like I’d grown a second head or gone crazy or anything like I had feared.  As a matter of fact, one person verbally agreed with me.  I hope I’ve given them something to think about.  If nothing else, I hope I’ve given them a seed with which to grow a better sense of self-worth.

5.  Through loving myself, I have built a better relationship with my husband than I ever thought I could have. This is another thing I’ve blogged about, here.  I’ve gone from thinking I needed an action plan for WHEN we got divorced (I had seriously come to the point where I felt it was a foregone conclusion) to thinking I was an idiot for thinking that way in the first place.

Wow.  That was actually really hard to do.  I had to save this as a draft for a couple of days in order to get through it all.  I’m glad I did, though; it was definitely worth it.  🙂

* – When I say “chosen family,” I’m referring to my best friend’s family.  I believe I’ve mentioned it before, but they have completely absorbed me into their family, to the point that I’m being invited to birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, etc., not just in my best friend’s immediate family (kids, grandkids, etc.), but in her extended family as well (sisters, nieces, nephews, the lot).  There is only ONE person in her ENTIRE family that doesn’t like me, and I don’t care, ‘cuz nobody likes HER, either!

Movie Meme

I’m totally stealing this from several people on the Fat Liberation feed (see sidebar to the right).  I’ve had so much fun reading others’ quote choices and trying to guess, I just couldn’t NOT steal it.  😉

1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.
5. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.

1.

XXX1: Ow! It bit me!
XXX2: What’d you expect fairies to do?
XXX1: I thought they did nice things, like… like granting wishes.
XXX2: Shows what *you* know, don’t it?

Amanda got this one!  It’s Labyrinth.

2.

Suddenly I heard a tapping, as of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. You heard me rapping, right?

Congratulations, ladykuri! You got it!  It’s The Crow.

3.

XXX1: My mom had to get a restraining order against my stepdad. He has emotional problems.
XXX2: Oh, I have those too! What kind of emotional problems does your dad have?
XXX1: He stabbed my mom four times in the chest.
XXX2: Oh.

Devi got it!  It’s Donnie Darko.

4.

Becky! Come here. Somethin’ I ought to tell you. Guess now’s as good a time as any. You’re going to have every young buck west of the Missouri around here tryin’ to marry you – mostly because you’re a handsome filly, but partly because I own everything in this country from here to there. They’ll think you’re going to inherit it. Well, you’re not. I’m going to leave most of it to, well, to the nation really, for a park where no lumbermen’ll cut down all the trees for houses with leaky roofs. Nobody’ll kill all the beaver for hats for dudes nor murder the buffalo for robes. What I’m going to give you is a 500 cow spread on the Upper Green River. Now that may not seem like much, but it’s more than we had, your mother and I. Some folks are gonna say I’m doin’ all this so I can sit up in the hereafter and look down on a park named after me, or that I was disappointed in you – didn’t want you to get all that money. But the real reason, Becky, is because I love you, and I want you and some young man to have what I had, because all the gold in the United States Treasury and all the harp music in heaven can’t equal what happens between a man and a woman with all that growin’ together. I can’t explain it any better than that.

Hey, MizH, you got it!  This is another one I didn’t think people would get.  It’s McLintock – the one and only John Wayne movie that I actually like (that I’ve seen; I don’t think I’ve seen ALL of them, but a lot of them, yeah.)

5.

You wouldn’t want to have children with three heads, would you? I mean, you wouldn’t want to set up housekeeping in a padded cell. Oh, it would be bad.

Oooh, Karin, you’re good!  I wasn’t sure ANYBODY was going to get this one!  It’s Arsenic and Old Lace – my all-time favorite Cary Grant movie.  🙂

6.

Components. American components, Russian Components, ALL MADE IN TAIWAN!

Yes, PK Tech Girl, it’s Armageddon! 🙂  (Actually, this is my absolute favorite line from the entire movie! Heehee)

7.

Y’all got on this boat for different reasons, but y’all come to the same place. So now I’m asking more of you than I have before. Maybe all. Sure as I know anything, I know this – they will try again. Maybe on another world, maybe on this very ground swept clean. A year from now, ten? They’ll swing back to the belief that they can make people… better. And I do not hold to that. So no more runnin’. I aim to misbehave.

Amanda got this one, too!  Serenity (God, I love this movie!)

8.

XXX1: Jesus didn’t have any brothers or sisters. Mary was a virgin.
XXX2: Mary gave birth to CHRIST without having known a man’s touch, that’s true. But she did have a husband. And do you really think he’d have stayed married to her all those years if he wasn’t getting laid? The nature of God and the Virgin Mary, those are leaps of faith. But to believe a married couple never got down? Well, that’s just plain gullibility.

The Bald Soprano got it!  It’s Dogma.

9.

Well, it’s good to see you’ve got your priorities in order. You care about a $75 bottle of wine, but you don’t give a fuck about killing a nine year old boy.

Karin got it!  It’s Mercury Rising.

10.

Why shouldn’t I work for the N.S.A.? That’s a tough one, but I’ll take a shot. Say I’m working at N.S.A. Somebody puts a code on my desk, something nobody else can break. Maybe I take a shot at it and maybe I break it. And I’m real happy with myself, ’cause I did my job well. But maybe that code was the location of some rebel army in North Africa or the Middle East. Once they have that location, they bomb the village where the rebels were hiding and fifteen hundred people I never met, never had no problem with, get killed. Now the politicians are sayin’, “Oh, send in the Marines to secure the area” ’cause they don’t give a shit. It won’t be their kid over there, gettin’ shot. Just like it wasn’t them when their number got called, ’cause they were pullin’ a tour in the National Guard. It’ll be some kid from Southie takin’ shrapnel in the ass. And he comes back to find that the plant he used to work at got exported to the country he just got back from. And the guy who put the shrapnel in his ass got his old job, ’cause he’ll work for fifteen cents a day and no bathroom breaks. Meanwhile, he realizes the only reason he was over there in the first place was so we could install a government that would sell us oil at a good price. And, of course, the oil companies used the skirmish over there to scare up domestic oil prices. A cute little ancillary benefit for them, but it ain’t helping my buddy at two-fifty a gallon. And they’re takin’ their sweet time bringin’ the oil back, of course, and maybe even took the liberty of hiring an alcoholic skipper who likes to drink martinis and fuckin’ play slalom with the icebergs, and it ain’t too long ’til he hits one, spills the oil and kills all the sea life in the North Atlantic. So now my buddy’s out of work and he can’t afford to drive, so he’s got to walk to the fuckin’ job interviews, which sucks ’cause the shrapnel in his ass is givin’ him chronic hemorrhoids. And meanwhile he’s starvin’, ’cause every time he tries to get a bite to eat, the only blue plate special they’re servin’ is North Atlantic scrod with Quaker State. So what did I think? I’m holdin’ out for somethin’ better. I figure fuck it, while I’m at it why not just shoot my buddy, take his job, give it to his sworn enemy, hike up gas prices, bomb a village, club a baby seal, hit the hash pipe and join the National Guard? I could be elected president.

And The Bald Soprano does it again!  Good Will Hunting

11.

I’d like to share a revelation that I’ve had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you’re not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You’re a plague and we are the cure.

And Amanda does it again!  The Matrix.

12.

Men are rats, listen to me, they’re fleas on rats, worse than that, they’re amoebas on fleas on rats. I mean, they’re too low for even the dogs to bite. The only man a girl can depend on is a daddy.

Elisabeth gets the prize!  It’s Grease.

13.

If there’s something wrong, those who have the ability to take action have the responsibility to take action.

Well, it’s only taken 8 days since I first posted this, but FINALLY somebody got this one.  thegirlfrommarz got it, it’s National Treasure.  I like it, and I don’t care what you say.  😛

14.

From my mother I inherited a love of language and an appreciation of nature. She could turn a walk around the island into a voyage of purest discovery. As a child, I thought she was the most extraordinary woman on earth. I wasn’t the first son to be wrong about his mother.

Pyewacket got it!  It’s The Prince of Tides.

15.

XXX1: What’s the challenge, then?
XXX2: Rescue the damsel in distress, kill the bad guy, save the world.

Aaaaaaand Karin does it again!  It’s The Mummy (oh, how I drool for Brendan Frasier!)

7 Random Things

Taking up The Rotund‘s invitation, I thought I’d do another meme – it’s good for breaking up the seriousness of the blog, if nothing else.  And I know a lot of you that do read what I write hardly know anything about me, so it’s good for a little “get to know you”, as well.

So here you go!

1.  I was voted “Most Likely to Win an Emmy” by the Class of ’94 at Mt. Assissi Academy.  To be honest, I’ve always wondered if it was some sort of sick joke, but then again, maybe not.  That particular school was one of the best as far as being bullied about my weight went – it didn’t happen at all there.  That’s not to say that there weren’t a few people there that didn’t have a inherent dislike toward me, but the few (and there really were only a few) that did, were the sort that really didn’t like anybody.  They had a very nasty view towards everybody, really.  So I just can’t be sure.  I’ve always wondered, though.

2.  Speaking of high school, I was on the school paper my senior year.  I can’t remember why I wasn’t on it my junior year (I only went to MAA my junior and senior years).  The funny thing was, our faculty advisor (who also happened to be my religion teacher for the two years I went there) couldn’t think of an assignment for me to do for the last issue.  So she allowed me to print a poem I’d written celebrating the fact that we were graduating and moving on to bigger and better things.  I’ve always thought that was really cool of her – it was the paper, so she didn’t have to do that.  We had a literary magazine for that sort of thing.

3.  Speaking of that, there’s another interesting factoid about me.  I was supposed to have been the editor for our literary magazine our senior year.  The way it worked then, the out-going editor (who was always a senior) got to pick her successor from the juniors on the staff.  I had been writing for and working with the magazine club a lot my junior year, and Amy (the then-editor), assured me (in private) that I was her pick for editor for the next year.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to attend the very last meeting, because they decided to have it at someone’s house on a Saturday morning, and my grandmother had to work – and having only one car (and no license at the time), that precluded me from going.  Imagine my shock the following Monday when it was announced that another girl, one who had only attended the last three meetings of the entire year was appointed editor.  Oh boy, were my feelings hurt.  But no, I didn’t say anything.  And yes, I was still on the staff the senior year, but I never got over it.  Not totally.

4.  The reason I’ve got high-school-on-the-brain is because I just got a ‘care package’ from my grandmother, with a bunch of yarn I’d left at her house and a couple of pieces of mail – one of them being the alumni newsletter from MAA.  I guess you could say I’m just in a nostalgic mood. 🙂

5.  I was actually homeless.  Twice.  Not homeless as in ‘I had to move back in with mom and dad.’  I mean homeless as in ‘either I stay at a shelter or I live in a cardboard box’ homeless.  The first time, my grandmother kicked me out when I was 19 (oh yeah, and I had a 10-month old baby at the time).  The second time was after I had gotten a place of my own with a man who turned out to be abusive.  When that relationship ended, my grandmother allowed me to stay with her temporarily as long as I seriously went about looking for another place to go (and if I hadn’t found another place so quickly [less than 4 months], I have no doubt that she would have kicked me out on my ass again).  I found a better shelter than the one I’d been in previously, and I ended up living there for nearly two years, until I got some training that allowed me to get a job good enough to support me and my (by then) two children.

6.  I met my husband on the internet in 1999.  Until it happened to me, I always thought that people who said they’d found their husband/wife/boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other on the internet were total whack-jobs.  Seriously.  I just couldn’t wrap my head around how someone could fall in love with another person without ever spending any time together.  Until it happened to me.  We’ve been married 8 years now.  😀

7.  My secret I’m-so-ridiculous-just-for-thinking-this dream is to become a singer.  I’m pretty good (I couldn’t begin to compare myself, but I know I don’t suck), and I just enjoy singing.  To this day, I can get my almost-13-year-old autistic daughter to calm down if I start singing.  Or, if I just happen to be doing something like cleaning the kitchen with my iPod in my ears and I’m singing, she’ll come into the room to just listen.  One of my aunts practically begged me to sing at her wedding (I did, and it definitely ranks up there with some of the most nerve-wracking moments of my life).  So I KNOW I don’t suck.  But I don’t doubt that the odds of me suddenly being ‘discovered’ are like 1357924680-1.  But hey… a girl can dream, right?  🙂