But I will definitely go see my doctor if I feel like something’s wrong.

I saw your post about your sweater on Fatshionista, and I hopped on over here and read about your unexpected weight loss. I am by no means a medical expert, but losing weight when you aren’t trying to can be an indicator of more than a few physical problems, including diabetes. If you continue to loose weight or experience any other health issues, please go see a doctor!

Answer: NONE OF THEM.

~Ed.

isn’t that what tends to set off eating disorders?

Oh GOD, yes!

I mean, there are a TON of mitigating factors, and hating the fat isn’t the sum total of a person’s eating disorder, but that is DEFINITELY one of the most prevalent. Body dysmorphia – whether it’s diagnosed or not – plays a HUGE part in it.

And I know that I, at one point, was this ][ close to having a full-blown eating disorder. If my Hubby hadn’t stepped in and virtually knocked some sense into me (NOT literally), I shudder to think where I might be right now. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally.

It’s really cruel, what our own brains do to us sometimes.

This! My mom totally has this issue (I posted about it on the livejournal Fatshionista community yesterday). She’s been trying to lose weight for as long as I’ve known her. I mean, her life has been one long diet. She’s thinner now than I remember her, but she’s still fat. And that’s all she can see – the fat. It hurts me to see her hate herself, because now that I’ve learned to think of myself as beautiful and acceptable as I am, I feel so much better, and I want her to feel that way too.

I’ve been thinking about how Mom thinks she’s bigger than she is, and that made me wonder, isn’t that what tends to set off eating disorders? From what I’ve seen, anorexics despise their fat – seeing themselves fatter than they are – and become super-controlling about what they eat/do to eradicate the fat. Maybe I have the wrong idea. Either way, it’s so saddening.

etooz, I can see where you’re coming from. And it makes sense. But I’d venture a guess and say you’re probably in the minority. Not that your feelings aren’t valid (THEY ARE!!), but I suspect that there are more of us that feel what I described in that quote than there are that feel as you do.

tg, yeah, the more I think about it, the more I wonder if he hasn’t hit the nail on the head. I mean, once I stopped hating myself, I started seeing myself as I truly was, which was thinner than what the self-loathing in my head made me out to be. It’s not that far-fetched to think that now that I’ve had time to digest THAT information, my body might throw me a curveball.

(And HOLY HELL, has it been THAT long since Ellen came out? It seems like it was only a couple of years ago!)

Just keep up with the healthy attitudes towards food and keep liking yourself for who you are and you’ll be fine!

(And I completely sympathize with not wanting to change clothing sizes because I hate clothes shopping.)

Stop worrying so much and enjoy life. Just chill and let it ride!